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Memories, they say, last a life time. Fortunately or unfortunately they do...

Travelling through my life's memory lane, sometimes i wish i had a remote at hand. There are memories i wish i could permanently delete, dream realities i would love to rewind and relive and a few magical moments i would want to pause for eternity...
But as I look back on all that has transpired i cant help... but smile. It is not always that I travel through this memory lane.I seldom have time to introspect. It is only at times when I feel so low and desperate to recuperate that I cling on to my memories that somehow serve as a healing touch. Somehow this magic wand gives me the strength when i need it the most, keeps me optimistic when things seem bleak and gives me the faith to go on. These memories have served me unfailing and taught me well.
There were times when i innocently wrote letters after letters to God hoping things would improve, times when i would shut myself in a bathroom, run all the taps at full force and cry my heart out, times i would go into depression and hurt not just myself but also people around me...Now i no longer do any of these.
i simply... smile.
When all i really do is cry from the inside. As if it does not hurt, as if it didnt matter, as if I dont exist.But somehow that smile gradually fills my heart and i do survive the moment.It gives me peace ...to forget and forgive... I have always found out ways to deal with my problems and i have learnt that one cant really do much than that...so i just smile on...

So what do u do??

Shed tears that the moment has passed,
Or smile because you had lived it.
Close your eyes and pray that it'll come back,
Or open your eyes and see what all it has left.
Feel empty because you can't live them anymore,
Or be full of love as you share them once more.
Turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
Or be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
Remember only that it's gone,
Or cherish the memory and let that SMILE on.