It has been long...really long...so long, that i dont know where to start from. Neverthless ,i have made an attempt to start again. I do not hope to achieve anything , but i must admit...reading all my previous posts after aeons did bring back a smile on my face.

Its definitely not another beginning...and defenitely not the end!

They talk to me all so sweet
As sweet as honey and lime could be
I know it is all too hard to believe
But I also know life is all but make-belief

So while I gave them all respect
All they did was laugh at me
They thought I wont know that they will disappoint me
They thought they wont hurt me

For once I wish I wasn’t wise
For I have already caught their disguise
But how I wish they saw past those smiles
How I wish they looked behind those walls

For long I have been a helping hand
Helping people from themselves
I hope I can save that one person this time
The one very last on the list all the time.

Gifts come in all sizes..even the ones from God.

Some gifts are big...something we have prayed and hoped for a very long time. Some are small, like the clear blue sky above and lush green grass on a perfectly sun kissed earth below...and then there are others, like a strangers smile or a babies yawn, twittering of birds or a talk with a child. the first drop of rain or the smell of the sand...They simply make you smile for no reason at all.

To be able to sleep peacefully every night and to be able to wake up eagerly looking forward to a brand new day. To be able to sit with your family and have a meal. To have someone wipe your tears and share your joy.To be able to grow from an embryo to a healthy baby in 9 months...we have more reasons to be thankful for than complain.

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Memories, they say, last a life time. Fortunately or unfortunately they do...

Travelling through my life's memory lane, sometimes i wish i had a remote at hand. There are memories i wish i could permanently delete, dream realities i would love to rewind and relive and a few magical moments i would want to pause for eternity...
But as I look back on all that has transpired i cant help... but smile. It is not always that I travel through this memory lane.I seldom have time to introspect. It is only at times when I feel so low and desperate to recuperate that I cling on to my memories that somehow serve as a healing touch. Somehow this magic wand gives me the strength when i need it the most, keeps me optimistic when things seem bleak and gives me the faith to go on. These memories have served me unfailing and taught me well.
There were times when i innocently wrote letters after letters to God hoping things would improve, times when i would shut myself in a bathroom, run all the taps at full force and cry my heart out, times i would go into depression and hurt not just myself but also people around me...Now i no longer do any of these.
i simply... smile.
When all i really do is cry from the inside. As if it does not hurt, as if it didnt matter, as if I dont exist.But somehow that smile gradually fills my heart and i do survive the moment.It gives me peace ...to forget and forgive... I have always found out ways to deal with my problems and i have learnt that one cant really do much than that...so i just smile on...

So what do u do??

Shed tears that the moment has passed,
Or smile because you had lived it.
Close your eyes and pray that it'll come back,
Or open your eyes and see what all it has left.
Feel empty because you can't live them anymore,
Or be full of love as you share them once more.
Turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
Or be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
Remember only that it's gone,
Or cherish the memory and let that SMILE on.

All for the love of a TAG...

Friends, Countrymen, fellow Netizens lend me your eyes!

Season's greetings, peace and prosperity to all.

Today , i shall complete something which is dear to every bloggers hearts, nostrils and intestines - the elusive fever called "tagging" . This one is my first, courtesy Maya.

Without further ado, by your leave, allow me to share with you this fun tag ...

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn on page 18 and find line 4.

concoting excuses for missing work.

2.Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.

hmmm..just got to lay my hands on the candy holder- hershleys crackel..crisped rice milk chocolate...and its already melting in my mouth ...heavenly!

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?

Taylors performance in American Idol

4.Without looking, guess what time it is?
3:00 p.m

5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
3:00 p.m

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
... birds chirping

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Today morning, to volunteer at a school. Corrected math papers.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
Outside the window...it was raining softly

What are you wearing?
clothes!:)..atleast thats what i call them:)...pink top and white capri

10. Did you dream last night?
No. was so tired...didnt have the time to dream actually:) slept like a log!

11. When did you last laugh?
This question actually put a smile to my face...had a good laugh just a few minutes back correcting papers.

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
A large beautiful painting of Krishna leela right in the centre of the wall

13 Seen anything weird lately?
yeah! me...in the mirror:)

14. What do you think of this quiz?
..will answer it in the end..let me finish the quiz first.

made me realise i am surrounded by beautiful things around me..never gave it a thought before and also how sweeet it was of maya to have tagged me.:)

15. What is the last film you saw?
Chronicles of narnia- the lion, the witch and the wardrobe...courtesy project party...we slept when the lights went off and were rudely woken up when one sleeping at the very end had to get up to pee!

16. If you became a multimillionaire overnight, what would you buy?
Would deposit all that money in a bank with my mom as a joint account holder and ask her to do what ever she wants to do with the money.

17. Tell me something about you that I dunno.
I have an excellent memory power and am a good singer.

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
Nothing..coz i firmly believe things are, the way they are meant to be.

19. Do you like to dance?
Only if i have a partner.

20. George Bush
George who?

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
munni

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
munna

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?:)
I am currently living abroad..and i cant wait to come back to India...coz there is no place like HOME.

24.What do you want GOD to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
Dont worry ...they (my family) will do fine without you!:)

25.I tag!

Voice
Raj
Gaurav Jain and
Sam

hope u guys have fun!..after all whats a TAG without u guys!

I am, therefore I think...

Expand (a+b)^n.

Solution:
..................................................(a+b)^n
................................................(a. + .b) ^ n
.............................................. (a ..+.. .b) ^ n
............................................ (a... +... .b) ^ n
etc.
That forward in my mail made me grin big time!!... & also to reflect on my days of tryst with destiny....er...maths!!! How i ever managed to top my M.B.A is a mystery!:)

PS:Before you read further let me polish my image a bit .. I am quite adept in maths now... please dont be misled by my "past performance".

Class 1: Q: 67+45= ?.
Hmm I failed that test.. know why? Coz I started counting my fingers ...then my toes ..then the number of heads i could see around me...then i ran out of heads to count...it all added up to 60..i wrote 60 and gave up my paper:-)
now dont ask anything about subtraction...i could never make heads disappear...i am no magician u see!!:-)...and i ended up getting marks shaped something like a bald head...for some reason they called it zero!

I was then introduced to the concept of drawing sticks... to add up things of course, instead of heads! and i was just getting a hang of it, when...
... came the lessons in Multiplication and Division that confused me even further...
Class 2:
Q:16 x 27=?... Hmm...thats a hell lots of sticks, i thought!!! I spent whole of the next 2 hours just drawing and counting 16 sticks twenty seven times..(...er twenty three times only actually )...This time i ran out of time...and got hit with sticks on my hands...but for some reason they called it a cane :-)

...and just when i had learnt to add and subtract and got all the tables by heart...

Class 5 : ... came Linear equations. Well I always wondered why they kept calling it linear equations as there is nothing Linear about Linear equations.. they always came in parellels..:-)
Q: solve the following
6+4(x+y)=0 ----1
4+6(x+y)=0 --- 2 find x and y

...this time i did exactly what i was asked to do
6+4=10 hence 10(x+y)=0-- 1
4+6=10 hence 10(x+y)=0-- 2
Therefore in my best knowledge - x+y =0!! ....precisely equal to the marks I got:))

Class 7:Geometry was introduced ..so in one case we were given a problem where a triangle was given and 2 angles were given.. we had to find the third angle. Now I royally skipped the question. Ask why?.. :-) see the angles given were 45 degrees and 60 degrees.. I took out my protractor and measured the angles.. they hardly came up to 20 degrees and 30 degrees respectively.. so I concluded it was a PRINTING MISTAKE !!!:-)

Then They introduced me to the sin(e)ful world of trigonometry...
Q: Find the limit of [sin(7x)]/(5x) as x -> 0
answer...... [sin(70)]/(50).

next question....

Q. sin x
...------- = ?.....my answer.....six!!!
......n
Proof: cancel the n in the numerator and denominator.

what about statistics??... u ask
well...as they say, a statistician can have his head in an oven and his feet in ice, and he will say that on the average he feels fine...so i guess on an average...i did just FINE!!

I have been thinking about this very seriously for sometime now.I don’t know if it is common for people to think so much about something before they come up with any decision .I doubt if its even normal . But then again...I have had so many issues regarding it... maybe that’s why. Or is it something else? Is it some nameless fear??? Of late this burning desire has increased so much that I am even writing a blog on it!... or am i wierd??!!I don’t know if my surroundings are compelling me to think so much about it or my need to share life and love that’s compelling me to think about this. Even my head has had countless arguments with my heart but there simply seems to be no end to this…if i listen to my heart, I am sure I will be breaking many a rules…then again…arent rules meant to be broken???...blame it all on the killer looks that gets me all hooked...Tall, strong, brown, hairy, black eyed Airedale Terrier of the canine family ... and my desire to have a pet!...now...now...what were you thinking???